Neeneeneidhal - An attempt to sing carnatic after 11 years
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Will- Ranjitha Sridharan
Privileged are those
who can choose to fade in or fade out at will
who can choose to barely exist or live a full life at will
who can choose to be alone or socialize at will
who can risk to be understood or misunderstood at will
who can choose to get hurt or stay unhurt at will
who can choose to give or take control at will
who can choose to confirm or breakaway at will
who can choose think or unthink their beliefs at will
who can choose to undefine or redefine themselves at will
who can choose to be fiercely independent or unduly parasitic at will
who can choose to lead or be lead at will
who can choose to compromise or uncompromise at will
who can choose to be whimsical or ambitious at will
who can choose to be themselves or nothing else at will
who can be choose to be masters of their destinies or nothing ,at will
who can choose to fade in or fade out at will
who can choose to barely exist or live a full life at will
who can choose to be alone or socialize at will
who can risk to be understood or misunderstood at will
who can choose to get hurt or stay unhurt at will
who can choose to give or take control at will
who can choose to confirm or breakaway at will
who can choose think or unthink their beliefs at will
who can choose to undefine or redefine themselves at will
who can choose to be fiercely independent or unduly parasitic at will
who can choose to lead or be lead at will
who can choose to compromise or uncompromise at will
who can choose to be whimsical or ambitious at will
who can choose to be themselves or nothing else at will
who can be choose to be masters of their destinies or nothing ,at will
The CLOCK Tower
I walked out of home the usual time. Seems like it rained last night. Everything was wet, the roads, and trees. Everything smelled of rain. It was heavenly!!! I turned right and reached the junction which has the flyover to one side of it. The fly over looked like a stairway to the clouds. Something very tantalizing about it. I stopped to wonder what the day has got in store for me.
Slowly I walked to the park; it looked lovely today splashed with patches of green. Suddenly I became conscious of my debacle with changu mangu. I ran a cautious glance on the park before I entered. Everything seemed okay. Changu Mangu may be decided to stay in hiding for some time. Was I Glad!!!
Just a few of their kith and kin were around looking disinterested in my activity except for one who I felt was watching me closely. Anyways Damn Changu Mangu ---- I am not writing about them today.
I began walking around the cricket ground where the usual bunch was warming up for the game. Fifteen Minutes into the routine, I heard the forced laughter of the senior citizen laughter club. Some thing about this group got to me. Generally I would break out into laughter hearing them laugh like hyenas ( they sound like humans apparently) in captivity but today what interested me was the ritual that followed hence. I stopped and sat in the nearby bench turned off the music to keep my ears and eyes open for the events that unfold. What was so interesting??
First was the place where the group was doing their routine. It was south end of the park and from where I was sitting I could see a clock tower between the trees. The scene was idyllic.
Secondly, the ritual .YES!! A proper war dance like ritual. After the hyena laughter routine, these men indulged in a act which reminded me of the Hippies!! With all due respect to the Hippies. Well the ritual now, they moved around in a circle, every alternate man in the moving forward together telling each other something.
Then they kinda split into three groups and there was one group acting like a bunch of youngsters hifying and thumping their chests, the other like small children running around prancing and jumping , while the third group stood motionless. It seemed like each of them were being guided by the clock tower. On the right side were the men all jolly and jumping acting like kids and youngsters. On the left were the old motionless men. Was it the effect of the clock tower?? I wondered how many changes it would have witnessed in the people, the place, the park. I brushed aside the strange thought and watched them leave the park. I can sometimes get sentimental about certain things. I wanted the clock tower thought to stay. So after the group left, I walked into the particular spot , to stretch and a secret urge to know if the clock tower has got anything in store for me. I laughed at my stupidity and decided to walk away from there after a few minutes.
As I reached the footpath, LO and behold!! I feel a fresh whiff of air smelling of Brut /Axe I don’t know. I wonder if it was the clock tower’s way of saying “MOVE ON Dearie!!” and So I shall coz if I don’t I wouldn’t be able to catch a glimpse of the subject in question.
To be contined…!!
Slowly I walked to the park; it looked lovely today splashed with patches of green. Suddenly I became conscious of my debacle with changu mangu. I ran a cautious glance on the park before I entered. Everything seemed okay. Changu Mangu may be decided to stay in hiding for some time. Was I Glad!!!
Just a few of their kith and kin were around looking disinterested in my activity except for one who I felt was watching me closely. Anyways Damn Changu Mangu ---- I am not writing about them today.
I began walking around the cricket ground where the usual bunch was warming up for the game. Fifteen Minutes into the routine, I heard the forced laughter of the senior citizen laughter club. Some thing about this group got to me. Generally I would break out into laughter hearing them laugh like hyenas ( they sound like humans apparently) in captivity but today what interested me was the ritual that followed hence. I stopped and sat in the nearby bench turned off the music to keep my ears and eyes open for the events that unfold. What was so interesting??
First was the place where the group was doing their routine. It was south end of the park and from where I was sitting I could see a clock tower between the trees. The scene was idyllic.
Secondly, the ritual .YES!! A proper war dance like ritual. After the hyena laughter routine, these men indulged in a act which reminded me of the Hippies!! With all due respect to the Hippies. Well the ritual now, they moved around in a circle, every alternate man in the moving forward together telling each other something.
Then they kinda split into three groups and there was one group acting like a bunch of youngsters hifying and thumping their chests, the other like small children running around prancing and jumping , while the third group stood motionless. It seemed like each of them were being guided by the clock tower. On the right side were the men all jolly and jumping acting like kids and youngsters. On the left were the old motionless men. Was it the effect of the clock tower?? I wondered how many changes it would have witnessed in the people, the place, the park. I brushed aside the strange thought and watched them leave the park. I can sometimes get sentimental about certain things. I wanted the clock tower thought to stay. So after the group left, I walked into the particular spot , to stretch and a secret urge to know if the clock tower has got anything in store for me. I laughed at my stupidity and decided to walk away from there after a few minutes.
As I reached the footpath, LO and behold!! I feel a fresh whiff of air smelling of Brut /Axe I don’t know. I wonder if it was the clock tower’s way of saying “MOVE ON Dearie!!” and So I shall coz if I don’t I wouldn’t be able to catch a glimpse of the subject in question.
To be contined…!!
The park saga
Well I met changu and mangu today in the park...
NO NO !! they are not sidy park thugs with bushy veerappan moustache and sinister mole on the face.
They are stray dogs who seem to share a Jai - Veeru relation. (Basanti was missing!!)
Seems like they made up their minds to follow me today. So there they were following me like sleuths investigating a case.
Now given my morbid fear for dogs , I walked pensively plotting how to shoo them off!!
Shouting / asking for help wasnt a option i felt at that moment ... I thought it would be embarassing and I am just proud and pricey to ask for help... ;).. in retrospect it was a simple and effective option.
So there i walked trying to look as casual as possible . I worried if the dogs sensed my fear they wouldnt hesistate in giving me a impression of their beautiful canine teeth....to take back home..!
I tried to understand why is it that these hairy , teethy, four legged , canine teeth clad creatures were so attracted to me? Its not like i use a deoderant which smells like bones or food( Pluto used that to attract a she dog in a cartoon once)...
I looked for a motive , racked and meditated further on this... and then Eureka!!! It struck me...it was like hammer hitting me on the head to look for the obvious...
They were interested in some thing i was holding. I decided to throw this at a safe distance and hoped it would divert their attention!!
So muttering prayers to GOD i just flung the thing i was holding ....
It worked!! The dogs ran right after it and attacked it.... and meanwhile i took a escape route from the ground to the other side...
Curious about what the dogs were upto i looked back and saw they were running off in the opposite direction... they hadnt even touched the thing i dropped...
Guess Wat ?? Chintu Herbal Juice wala Karela Juice saves me again...!!!
The Magic potion!!
NO NO !! they are not sidy park thugs with bushy veerappan moustache and sinister mole on the face.
They are stray dogs who seem to share a Jai - Veeru relation. (Basanti was missing!!)
Seems like they made up their minds to follow me today. So there they were following me like sleuths investigating a case.
Now given my morbid fear for dogs , I walked pensively plotting how to shoo them off!!
Shouting / asking for help wasnt a option i felt at that moment ... I thought it would be embarassing and I am just proud and pricey to ask for help... ;).. in retrospect it was a simple and effective option.
So there i walked trying to look as casual as possible . I worried if the dogs sensed my fear they wouldnt hesistate in giving me a impression of their beautiful canine teeth....to take back home..!
I tried to understand why is it that these hairy , teethy, four legged , canine teeth clad creatures were so attracted to me? Its not like i use a deoderant which smells like bones or food( Pluto used that to attract a she dog in a cartoon once)...
I looked for a motive , racked and meditated further on this... and then Eureka!!! It struck me...it was like hammer hitting me on the head to look for the obvious...
They were interested in some thing i was holding. I decided to throw this at a safe distance and hoped it would divert their attention!!
So muttering prayers to GOD i just flung the thing i was holding ....
It worked!! The dogs ran right after it and attacked it.... and meanwhile i took a escape route from the ground to the other side...
Curious about what the dogs were upto i looked back and saw they were running off in the opposite direction... they hadnt even touched the thing i dropped...
Guess Wat ?? Chintu Herbal Juice wala Karela Juice saves me again...!!!
The Magic potion!!
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
A thought about human behavior
Over centuries we have always learnt to appreciate devotion/near obsession to things like arts, sports, music etc. I feel the reason is because these activities are such that at one could push himself/ herself to excel and only variable that could affect it is the amount of effort put in achieving it.We have named this particular trait as persevernce, hardwork and grit,never say die attitude etc etc etc... All this mainly attribute to the kind of relationship a human shares with a particular activity. People who achieved excellence in these activities werre rendered as genius , prodigies and what not!!! All of a sudden when i was musing over this i realized that most of them are extremely indivudual achievements.Galileo,Mozart, Beethoven , Federer, Connors, Picasso, Remembrant, Sachin Tendulkar, Don Bradman and many more have pushed themself to the edge to deserve the accolades . You might argue that it is not indivudual and that it does require a lot of family support and luck. But what overrides in all these peoples achievements is the drive to excel and personal conviction. Basically Self driven achievements
On the other hand are people devoted to other people. I am talking about both personal and social relationships. Ironically for such people the recognition comes too late though the amount of effort put in by them is tremendous and involves a lot of other factors apart from sheer hardwork.It involves dedication , trust , understanding , sacrifice and lot of other complicated human factors to keep the relationship going. People like Mother Teresa, Nelson Mandela, Gandhi , Wangari Mathai, are a few who did get acknoledged later on in their lives. On the personal front, I have known people who have spent years trying to build a relationship but it just never seems enough. Human relationships are so whimsical that no amount of effort from an indivudual can guarantee success , it is always mutual and unless reciprocated it just bounces back at the person like a boomerang. Here again there is a catch and a very thin line of difference between the activity achievers and the people pacifiers . While both these genre remain extremely self driven to achieve their goals the latter's motivations are more external oriented.
There are disagreements which one of these people are the greatest and it still continues.
But my attempt here was to just illustrate how indivudual activity achievements are different from people and community related achievements. I hope i have been successful. I am open to feed back.
On the other hand are people devoted to other people. I am talking about both personal and social relationships. Ironically for such people the recognition comes too late though the amount of effort put in by them is tremendous and involves a lot of other factors apart from sheer hardwork.It involves dedication , trust , understanding , sacrifice and lot of other complicated human factors to keep the relationship going. People like Mother Teresa, Nelson Mandela, Gandhi , Wangari Mathai, are a few who did get acknoledged later on in their lives. On the personal front, I have known people who have spent years trying to build a relationship but it just never seems enough. Human relationships are so whimsical that no amount of effort from an indivudual can guarantee success , it is always mutual and unless reciprocated it just bounces back at the person like a boomerang. Here again there is a catch and a very thin line of difference between the activity achievers and the people pacifiers . While both these genre remain extremely self driven to achieve their goals the latter's motivations are more external oriented.
There are disagreements which one of these people are the greatest and it still continues.
But my attempt here was to just illustrate how indivudual activity achievements are different from people and community related achievements. I hope i have been successful. I am open to feed back.
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